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  A Reunion of Hearts

  Copyright © 2019 by Elizabeth Wiseman Mackey

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  CONTENTS

  Copyright

  Glossary

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Epilogue

  Discussion Questions

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  To Rae of Sunshine, always remembered, never forgotten.

  GLOSSARY*

  ach: oh

  aenti: aunt

  appeditlich: delicious

  bann: a temporary period of excommunication intended to cause a change of heart and end errant behavior in a church member

  bedauerlich: sad

  boppli/bopli/ boplin: baby, babies

  brot: bread

  bruder: brother

  bruders: brothers

  bruderskinner: nieces/nephews

  bu: boy

  buwe: boys

  daadi: grandfather

  daadi haus/dawdy haus: a small house built onto or near the main house for grandparents to live in

  danki: thank you

  dat/daed: dad, father

  Deutsch/Deitsch: Dutch

  dochder: daughter

  dochdern: daughters

  Dummle!: hurry!

  Englisch/English/Englisher: English: non-Amish person

  eck: married couple’s corner table at their wedding reception

  Fehla: sin

  fraa: wife

  freind: friend

  freinden: friends

  froh: happy

  gegisch: silly

  gern/gaern gschehne: you’re welcome

  Gmay: church district

  Gott: God

  groossdaadi/grossdaadi: grandpa

  groossmammi/grossmammi: grandma

  Gude/guder mariye: Good morning

  gut: good

  Gut nach/gut natcht: Good night

  haus: house

  hund: dog

  Ich liebe dich: I love you

  jah: yes

  kaffi: coffee

  kapp: prayer covering or cap

  kichli/kuche/kichlin: cookie, cookies

  kinner: children

  kitzn: cat

  krank: ill

  kuche: cake

  kuchen: cakes

  kumm: come

  leib/liewe: love, a term of endearment

  maed: young women, girls

  maedel: young woman

  mamm/mudder: mom, mother

  mammi: grandmother

  mann: husband

  mei: my

  Meidung: avoidance, shunning

  millich: milk

  naerfich: nervous

  narrisch: crazy

  nee: no

  onkel: uncle

  Ordnung: written and unwritten rules in an Amish district

  rumspringa/rumschpringe: period of running around when a young person turns sixteen

  schee: pretty

  schmaert: smart

  schtupp: family room

  schweschder: sister

  schweschdere: sisters

  sohn/suh: son

  Was iss letz?: What’s wrong?

  Wie bischt?: How are you?

  Wie geht’s: How do you do? or Good day!

  wunderbaar: wonderful

  ya: yes

  *The German dialect spoken by the Amish is not a written language and varies depending on the location and origin of the settlement. These spellings are approximations. Most Amish children learn English after they start school. They also learn high German, which is used in the Sunday services.

  CHAPTER 1

  Ruth Beiler stepped out of the red Buick Enclave she’d rented at the airport and pressed her feet on the dewy grass that twinkled in the early-morning light. Her brown loafers sank into the lush green yard where she’d spent her childhood. Memories of wonderful times flooded her mind—playing in the sprinkler with Esther on hot summer days, hosting Sunday singings, collecting eggs, planting a garden, and hanging clothes on the line, only to argue about who would take them down later.

  Ruth had missed her family, especially her sister. Esther and Amos had lived in their family home for two years now, since their parents relocated to the daadi haus on the north end of the property. The house had been in the Stoltzfus family for four generations.

  Coming back to Lancaster County, even after five years, still fueled the grief Ruth carried around like a cement backpack, an unwanted accessory that would forever be a part of who she was now. Losing a child did that to a person.

  She stood in the grass, feet rooted to the ground, as she scanned her surroundings. The barn sported a fresh coat of red paint. The chicken coop had been overhauled with new wiring, and there was a wooden house with a ramp inside. Several hens pushed for space to crane their necks out to squawk a disgruntled welcome.

  The white farmhouse looked exactly the same. The porch was painted a light gray, and two white rockers rested beside each other with a small table in between. Green blinds in the windows were drawn halfway. The flowerbeds were in full bloom with begonias, lilies, freesia, and daffodils—their mother’s favorite.

  Ruth breathed in the familiar scent of the flowers mingled with freshly cut hay and manure. Altogether, the smells of springtime created an aroma Ruth had found herself trying to remember at her new home in Florida.

  Like a mirror cracking before her eyes, the pleasant memories broke and fell in pieces, giving way to the dark part of her mind where the pain was still fresh. The sirens, the bright lights on the cars spinning red and blue, and the police marching up the porch steps.

  She and Gideon were having supper with Esther and Amos when they received the news that Grace had been killed. Their only child. Beautiful, ten-year-old Grace was riding in a buggy with Mae Beiler, Ruth’s mother-in-law, when she was killed
along with her grandmother. Onlookers said a fire alarm sounded nearby, and Mae’s horse got spooked and darted into traffic on Lincoln Highway.

  Ruth squeezed her eyelids closed as the images of that night resurfaced, causing tears to fill her eyes. For the week she would be here, she’d promised herself she would try to focus on happy memories and not let her grief overshadow this time with her sister and other family members who were coming from out of state for the reunion.

  She opened her eyes, took a deep breath, and pictured two little girls playing in the sprinkler not ten feet from where she was standing. It was a technique she learned from her support group, to quickly replace the bad memory with a good one. Ruth would need to practice a lot to get through this week.

  In Florida she was able to compartmentalize and keep the sadness out of sight and out of mind, even if only for a while. That might prove to be a difficult task here, where the good and bad memories collided. She hoped that by coming for a visit, she would return filled with an abundance of new memories to offset the bad.

  Staying with her sister’s family would be better than staying at the house she and Gideon had abandoned when they left the Old Order Amish community, each hauling a grief that divided them as they went their separate ways.

  Gideon lived in Ohio now. He’d relocated near cousins there after running away, the same way Ruth had when she reconnected with distant relatives in Florida. She hadn’t seen him since then. They talked on the phone several times and exchanged a few letters the first year, but the communication was too painful. The phone calls and letters slowly stopped.

  She’d heard from Gideon for the first time a few weeks ago. He asked if she would mind him coming for the reunion, and she told him that was fine. He was still her husband, and this was his family, too, so the reunion would give them a chance to see family again and get the house ready to sell. Gideon said he’d been mailing checks to a local teenager to keep up with the yard, and Ruth told him Esther went inside occasionally to check for mice or vandals. She knew going in the house was painful for her sister, too, and Ruth appreciated her sister’s kindness. Esther had even covered the furniture with sheets and given everything a good wipe down once a month. The call with Gideon was awkward, businesslike, and Ruth wondered if he had moved on. Perhaps he was even dating.

  Ruth and Gideon were shunned when they left each other and the community. Even though her communication with Gideon had ceased, Ruth continued to correspond with her loved ones, mostly her sister, mother, and father-in-law. Her mother said the bishop was aware but wasn’t making a fuss about it.

  Bishop Lapp had further extended his grace by allowing Ruth to come home. Most likely her family hoped she was here to stay—if the bishop would even allow it. She’d already prepared for the onslaught of reasons they would offer for her to return to the life she’d loved and left. But no amount of best-intended coaxing would ever lure Ruth back to this place permanently. Everything she once found so beautiful was now tarnished.

  She jumped when the screen door opened and a young girl bounced down the porch steps and skipped barefoot across the yard. The child wore a light-blue dress, and a few strands of curly blonde hair were flying around the sides of her kapp. At Esther’s insistence, Ruth had arrived before anyone else, so this bundle of energy must be Esther and Amos’s daughter, Becky. My niece. She was carrying a bundle of daisies wrapped in paper towels and stopped in front of Ruth, smiling. Ruth had never seen the little girl before. She was as beautiful as her mother had been at that age, and she even had the same dimples as Esther.

  “You are mei aenti Ruth.” Becky bounced up on her toes as she offered the flowers.

  Squatting down to the child’s level, Ruth accepted them. “Ya, I am. Danki for these.” She was surprised how easily the dialect rolled off her tongue. She hadn’t used it in years. Pennsylvania Deitsch was the first language an Amish child learned. They didn’t usually learn English until they started school, but Esther had told Ruth she wanted Becky to get a jump on it before school started in the fall. Esther didn’t take to English very well her first year, so she might be worried Becky would have trouble with it too.

  A squeal came from the porch before Ruth’s sister rushed down the stairs and across the yard. She flung her arms around Ruth and kissed her on the cheek.

  “I’ve missed you so much.” Esther squeezed her so hard she almost couldn’t breathe. “I made all of your favorites for dinner.” She eased out of the hug and locked eyes with Ruth. “You look so pretty.”

  Ruth’s younger sister had never seen her in English clothes or wearing a small amount of makeup. Ruth had kept her dark hair long over the years and it was pulled into a ponytail. She’d chosen jeans and a long sleeve tan blouse for today, out of respect for her family. It was hot enough in Florida, and here, to wear shorts, but it was frowned upon by the Amish to expose that much of yourself.

  As they crossed the yard, Ruth glanced over at the swing hanging from the large oak tree. How many times had she pushed Grace in that swing when they’d come to visit her parents?

  She thought again about the house Gideon built for them, the one they moved into after they’d been married about a year, the house they raised Grace in for ten years.

  Gideon left the community about two months after Ruth, leaving most of their belongings behind. Even though they agreed to go through everything together this week, Ruth feared that part of this trip. Would seeing everything again set back the progress she’d made? She was equally fearful about seeing Gideon for the first time in all these years. Her stomach churned every time she thought about it. Would he look the same? Would he act the same? Had he shaved his beard? An endless list of questions ran through her mind when it came to Gideon.

  In hindsight Ruth knew his pain was probably worse than her own. He’d lost his only child and his mother. Ruth had loved Mae, too, but she was Gideon’s mother. At the time, Ruth couldn’t see past her own grief, and she had no sympathy to give anyone else, not even her husband. Her support group in Florida for grieving parents had helped a lot, but it took her a while to feel strong enough to talk about losing Grace. Again she worried if this trip was a mistake. She prayed that being here would help her to continue healing.

  As Ruth crossed over the threshold, the wonderful smells of home wafted up her nostrils—freshly baked bread and something simmering on the stove. Maybe it was Esther’s special beef stew. Her sister had mentioned preparing Ruth’s favorites for dinner, the noon meal. Ruth had grown used to dinner being the nighttime meal in the English world, but here, dinner meant lunch.

  Amos greeted her with a hug in the living room. “So glad to have you home.”

  She forced a smile as she eased out of his arms. “It’s gut to be here.” Her brother-in-law was a wonderful man, a good husband to Esther, and a great father.

  Esther motioned around the living room. “What do you think of our new furniture? Mamm was attached to their couch, and can you imagine Daed not having his recliner? They left almost everything else when they moved to the daadi haus, but they wanted those two pieces.” Esther smiled.

  Ruth didn’t think her sister had aged a day since she’d been gone, but there was a maturity that showed in her expressions. Motherhood. Ruth had worried things might be awkward after not seeing everyone for so long, but Esther carried on in the same upbeat manner as always.

  “I love it.” The beige couch had large cushion backs with a dropdown table in the middle. The new recliner was a dark shade of tan and beautifully complemented the multicolored rug with its shades of brown. The coffee table had a glass top and a vase filled with daisies in the middle. Glancing around, Ruth noticed a calendar hanging on the wall, as well as a framed picture of a lovely landscape that looked like it could have been taken right out the back door. There was also a beautiful clock on the mantel and figurines of angels on either side of it.

  “I know what you’re thinking.” Esther sighed as she blew a strand of hair away from her face.
“It’s a bit fancy.”

  That was what Ruth was thinking. “It’s lovely. What did Mamm say?”

  “That it was a bit fancy.” Esther chuckled.

  Laughter. If the walls in the house could talk, they’d tell of wonderful times filled with cheerfulness. Those were the memories she wanted to take back with her.

  “When will Mamm and Daed be here?” Ruth felt a tinge of disappointment that her parents hadn’t come to welcome her.

  “They should be here any minute.” Esther looked at the clock, then frowned. “Where is Becky?”

  Amos glanced around. “She was just here.” He shrugged. “Maybe she went outside.”

  Esther shook her head. “I think she would live outside if we’d let her. She’s supposed to let us know if she’s going out to swing.” She nodded to her husband. “Will you find her and remind her not to just disappear?”

  Ruth drew in a deep breath, recalling how much Grace had loved the outdoors. Ruth had looked forward to meeting her niece, but seeing the girl also brought on a surge of pain she should have expected. Memories of Grace at that age filled her mind.

  After the screen door closed behind Amos, Esther drew closer to her sister and touched Ruth’s arm, her eyebrows knitting together. “Gideon is already here. I thought he wasn’t coming until tomorrow, but he stopped by this morning. He’s staying at his daed’s haus.”

  Ruth’s heart pounded against her chest.

  Esther smiled a little. “He looked good.”

  Ruth put a hand to her chest and locked eyes with her sister. “I’m so nervous about seeing him. We’ve barely communicated over the last five years, and not at all in the last four. It’s hard enough for me to be here, Esther, and . . .” She paused when her voice cracked. “As much as I’ve missed my family, facing Gideon, our house”—she blinked back tears—“I thought I was ready, but now I’m not sure.”

  “Ruth . . .” Esther spoke with tenderness in her voice. “You said you wanted this trip to help you heal. Let Gott do His work.”

  Ruth blinked again, pushing back more tears that threatened to spill. “I’m scared,” she said, barely above a whisper.

  Esther wrapped her arms around her and kissed her on the cheek again. “I know you are.” Her sister’s eyes were watery now too. “But fear blocks the voice of Gott. Listen to Him, and everything will be okay, ya?”